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Reality

I feel like I’m in high school again. Not in the sense of drama (thank God), but in the actual way I feel. The majority of the time that I was in high school, I danced on that fine line … Continue reading

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Alright. I’m confused.

I’ve been hesitant to write here. Can I blame that on my new therapist? Because I want to.  I want to blame all the confusion I feel on her. For months I’ve been trying to sort out how much I’m … Continue reading

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Annnnd I’m done.

Have you ever had one of those moments where you just want to throw your hands up in the air and yell “I’m Done!” I’m there. I get one of my meds through the drug company’s patience assistance program.  Last … Continue reading

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What if…

Ever since the new therapist essentially told me I was fine and suggested that the reason I feel like crap sometimes is because I expect to, I’ve had this inner struggle.  I’m full of what ifs. What if the reason … Continue reading

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Here we go again

Me: *Looks at watch.  It’s 5:50pm* Did anyone else hear those church bells? Friend: No Me: *Looks at dad* Dad: Nope Me: I swear I heard them, but its strange that they would be at ten till six. Friend: *Joking … Continue reading

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Well this is new….or not

Now that I’ve calmed down after the intensity of rapidly changing to psychiatrists and therapists who somewhat challenged what I believed about my mental health, something weird has happened. I feel OK.  I don’t see myself as “sick.” I’m not … Continue reading

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The name game and firing your psychiatrist.

Every single psychologist, therapist, and psychiatrist I’ve seen has had a different opinion as to what is going on with my brain. Including the psychiatrist I saw yesterday. The running list so far: Anxiety Depression Nothing (this one makes me … Continue reading

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Mental Gymnastics

Every now and then I get it in my head that I’m not really bipolar…that I don’t really have a mental illness.  There’s two way this manifests itself. I don’t believe I need therapy anymore.  I believe my symptoms went … Continue reading

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Damn Worksheets

I’m doing that fun thing where you have to get to know a brand new therapist. I’m proud of myself for being able to sit down and be up front and honest about my symptoms without putting it off or … Continue reading

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Time for a new therapist

Today, I meet my new therapist.  This will be the tenth psychiatrist/therapist I’ve gone through. Tenth.  And out of those ten, TWO have believed me. The other eight….some misdiagnosed me, a few (ironically the ones with the PhD’s) told me I … Continue reading

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