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This isn’t supposed to be how it works

Two days ago I called my therapist and left a message saying I wanted to talk to her about something. Namely that I don’t want to see her anymore. She called me back this morning, and the conversation went a … Continue reading

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Reality-check

I texted the Crisis Text Line last night. No, I wasn’t suicidal…I had my reasons and no, I’m not going to tell you. But it helped. It also told me something. I can’t wait to switch therapists. It may not … Continue reading

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Yoga

That’s what my therapist wants me to do. She tells me about how she exercises even though it’s not her favorite thing and then feels fabulous. She tells me I need a project. I already have one, I say. Apparently … Continue reading

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Alright. I’m confused.

I’ve been hesitant to write here. Can I blame that on my new therapist? Because I want to.  I want to blame all the confusion I feel on her. For months I’ve been trying to sort out how much I’m … Continue reading

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What if…

Ever since the new therapist essentially told me I was fine and suggested that the reason I feel like crap sometimes is because I expect to, I’ve had this inner struggle.  I’m full of what ifs. What if the reason … Continue reading

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Here we go again

Me: *Looks at watch.  It’s 5:50pm* Did anyone else hear those church bells? Friend: No Me: *Looks at dad* Dad: Nope Me: I swear I heard them, but its strange that they would be at ten till six. Friend: *Joking … Continue reading

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Yup, I’m angry. 

I am angry. My Facebook friends have started posting all kinds of articles about mental illness. Anxiety. Depression. Postpartum depression. Totally legit and accurate articles. But it makes me angry. Don’t get me wrong, it’s good that people are talking … Continue reading

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Mental Gymnastics

Every now and then I get it in my head that I’m not really bipolar…that I don’t really have a mental illness.  There’s two way this manifests itself. I don’t believe I need therapy anymore.  I believe my symptoms went … Continue reading

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Damn Worksheets

I’m doing that fun thing where you have to get to know a brand new therapist. I’m proud of myself for being able to sit down and be up front and honest about my symptoms without putting it off or … Continue reading

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Time for a new therapist

Today, I meet my new therapist.  This will be the tenth psychiatrist/therapist I’ve gone through. Tenth.  And out of those ten, TWO have believed me. The other eight….some misdiagnosed me, a few (ironically the ones with the PhD’s) told me I … Continue reading

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