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Today I texted my therapist to tell her I stopped taking my meds among other things. She suggested I go to the ER. Shit.  I texted her back and told her I was NOT going to the ER, that I … Continue reading

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Exhaustion

Well. I survived. I made it through the week of camp. I was kinda useless by Thursday (thank goodness for my assistant). I just didn’t have the energy and mental capacity to deal with 5th graders anymore. I couldn’t even … Continue reading

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My Story, Part 1

I told my friend that I’d tell her my story. I wasn’t sure where to start, or how much to tell.  I couldn’t tell everything…16 years is a long time. 16 years.  Over half of my life.  This is Part … Continue reading

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Behold the mighty Post-It note.

Last night I pulled out my journal.  I had lots of things running through my head, so I wanted to make a list. A list of reasons why I should give up. So I grabbed my pen, pulled out my … Continue reading

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Dear Future Self–

Last week, my therapist told me that I’m in recovery.  In my world, that means this is as good as it gets.  I don’t mean that in a bad way.  I’m mostly happy with where I’m at.  What I’m not … Continue reading

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World Suicide Prevention Day

I know I’m a day late. I couldn’t find the words yesterday.  I’m not sure I can find the words today, but I’m going to try. I have a story.  I have to keep reminding myself. I have a story. I … Continue reading

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Me too.

I have a friend who is very open about his mental health struggles. This morning I saw his post on Facebook talking about suicide and his experience with it ( which closely mirrors my own).  I wanted to join in … Continue reading

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Being Open

I had the chance today to catch up with a friend I don’t see all that often. She asked me if I was any happier than I was a few years ago.  I thought about it for about 0.3 seconds, … Continue reading

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When things aren’t OK anymore.

Heads up: I talk about suicide in this post because its my reality right now.   Not so long ago, I thought I was approaching stability. Heh. Funny. I’m not even sure what happened.  Everything kinda exploded in my face. … Continue reading

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Tomorrow

Tomorrow is D-Day. Okay, so maybe not that dramatic.  But tomorrow is the day I’m dragging my parents to therapy with me to explain my brain and hopefully tell them I need a safety plan without involving a heart attack, … Continue reading

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