Tag Archives: recovery

Big things that are heavy

“If and when things get bad again, you’ll know what to do.” If and when. That’s what my therapist said when I described that continual state of fear that I’ll wake up one morning and be sick again. If and … Continue reading

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Things I want you to know about Bipolar

It’s OK to laugh if I make jokes about it. My family always said if you don’t laugh you’ll cry so you might as well laugh about it. If I make a joke about my Bipolar, whether it be about … Continue reading

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I got this.

Two weeks ago, it was decided that I didn’t have to go to therapy last week. (yay!) Proof that I’m getting better. That doesn’t mean the last two weeks were filled with puppies and butterflies and unicorns.  Far from it, … Continue reading

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Recovery is…

Being in recovery doesn’t mean I get to feel good all the time. Sometimes all the symptoms still get together and have a party in my head. It means I am able to go “I feel like shit” and then … Continue reading

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There’ a word for that.

Guys, I think I’m shooting myself in the foot.  Metaphorically, of course. I have made huge strides in managing this illness. I know what kind of schedule I need to be on.  I take my meds (under protest sometimes, but … Continue reading

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Victories

For years, I’ve dreamed of the day when I can wake up and go about my business without the shadow of mental illness hanging over me. Constantly having bipolar shoved in your face by your own brain is annoying and exhausting. … Continue reading

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Brilliant Therapy Moments

Every now and then I have a profound conversation with my therapist. Sara (therapist):So what’s going on? Me:  There’s a thing. Sara: What kind of thing? Me: The thing that I don’t want to be a thing. Sara: Ah, that … Continue reading

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Excuses

I have a question for you. When does suffering become an excuse? When does suffering become learned helplessness? Where is that line?  And have I crossed it? For 14 years I lived with an undiagnosed mental disorder.For the past two … Continue reading

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Tacos and Tapeworms

(Let’s be real, this post has absolutely nothing to do with tacos…..but it makes for a catchy title, doesn’t it?) We all know it is rude to go up to someone and say, “I can’t believe how fat you are!” … Continue reading

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You mean this isn’t normal?

A while ago (54 days if you are counting)  I downloaded this app on my phone. It lets me track my mood.  My phone beeps at me 3 times a day, I swipe to unlock the phone, the app pops … Continue reading

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