Tag Archives: mental illness

Well this is new….or not

Now that I’ve calmed down after the intensity of rapidly changing to psychiatrists and therapists who somewhat challenged what I believed about my mental health, something weird has happened. I feel OK.  I don’t see myself as “sick.” I’m not … Continue reading

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Labels Matter

In the whole 3 days since I was told I may have schizoaffective disorder, I’ve put in some long, hard thought about labels and diagnosis. Everyone except one person has told me that labels don’t matter, and it doesn’t matter … Continue reading

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Here we go again….

I should be tired and exhausted.  I haven’t slept through the night for the past 4 nights.  I wake up after a couple hours wide awake.  Eventually I drift off again, but I’m up again after an hour. Normally when this … Continue reading

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Dear Friend

Dear Friend, I know we don’t talk much anymore, but I need you now.  You see, I’m not doing well.  I’m coping by not coping. I’m reverting back to bad habits. I’m not sleeping. I’m not concentrating. But you don’t … Continue reading

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If you want to make me mad, this is how you do it.

I realize this post could potentially make me sound cynical and bitter. Sorry not sorry. I’m enough of a big girl to realize I’m upset at my situation and jealous and oversimplifying, but that doesn’t mean I don’t get frustrated … Continue reading

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Recovery is…

Being in recovery doesn’t mean I get to feel good all the time. Sometimes all the symptoms still get together and have a party in my head. It means I am able to go “I feel like shit” and then … Continue reading

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Dear Future Self–

Last week, my therapist told me that I’m in recovery.  In my world, that means this is as good as it gets.  I don’t mean that in a bad way.  I’m mostly happy with where I’m at.  What I’m not … Continue reading

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There’ a word for that.

Guys, I think I’m shooting myself in the foot.  Metaphorically, of course. I have made huge strides in managing this illness. I know what kind of schedule I need to be on.  I take my meds (under protest sometimes, but … Continue reading

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Brilliant Therapy Moments

Every now and then I have a profound conversation with my therapist. Sara (therapist):So what’s going on? Me:  There’s a thing. Sara: What kind of thing? Me: The thing that I don’t want to be a thing. Sara: Ah, that … Continue reading

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World Suicide Prevention Day

I know I’m a day late. I couldn’t find the words yesterday.  I’m not sure I can find the words today, but I’m going to try. I have a story.  I have to keep reminding myself. I have a story. I … Continue reading

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