Tag Archives: mental illness

I’m fine.

I’m fine. The memories of this past week where I couldn’t cook or clean, or when I’d call my mom crying are fading into the background. The fact that I called off work last Monday is so faint in my … Continue reading

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This isn’t supposed to be how it works

Two days ago I called my therapist and left a message saying I wanted to talk to her about something. Namely that I don’t want to see her anymore. She called me back this morning, and the conversation went a … Continue reading

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Reality-check

I texted the Crisis Text Line last night. No, I wasn’t suicidal…I had my reasons and no, I’m not going to tell you. But it helped. It also told me something. I can’t wait to switch therapists. It may not … Continue reading

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Turning 30

I turn 30 this week. I never thought turning 30 would feel like a big deal, but it does. Not in the sense that I’m suddenly old, but in the sense I get to start over. It’s like New Years. … Continue reading

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Yoga

That’s what my therapist wants me to do. She tells me about how she exercises even though it’s not her favorite thing and then feels fabulous. She tells me I need a project. I already have one, I say. Apparently … Continue reading

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Reality

I feel like I’m in high school again. Not in the sense of drama (thank God), but in the actual way I feel. The majority of the time that I was in high school, I danced on that fine line … Continue reading

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Here we go again….

Well, any doubt that something is wrong with my mental health has vanished. Depression has fully parked itself in my brain. I feel like I have my own personal black cloud. It’s been slowly creeping up on me. But the … Continue reading

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Annnnd I’m done.

Have you ever had one of those moments where you just want to throw your hands up in the air and yell “I’m Done!” I’m there. I get one of my meds through the drug company’s patience assistance program.  Last … Continue reading

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Well this is new….or not

Now that I’ve calmed down after the intensity of rapidly changing to psychiatrists and therapists who somewhat challenged what I believed about my mental health, something weird has happened. I feel OK.  I don’t see myself as “sick.” I’m not … Continue reading

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Labels Matter

In the whole 3 days since I was told I may have schizoaffective disorder, I’ve put in some long, hard thought about labels and diagnosis. Everyone except one person has told me that labels don’t matter, and it doesn’t matter … Continue reading

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