Tag Archives: mental health

Late nights and downward slides.

I stayed up late last night. Bad move. I had a friend from college over and we talked until 10:45 or so. I went straight to bed when he left, but I’m paying for the late night now. A couple … Continue reading

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What if…

Ever since the new therapist essentially told me I was fine and suggested that the reason I feel like crap sometimes is because I expect to, I’ve had this inner struggle.  I’m full of what ifs. What if the reason … Continue reading

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Good Things

Things are happening in my life.  Good things. Things I’ve been waiting for, but were never sure if they would ever come. Right now they are all maybes…but if they are all maybes, something has to come true, right? I’m … Continue reading

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Well this is new….or not

Now that I’ve calmed down after the intensity of rapidly changing to psychiatrists and therapists who somewhat challenged what I believed about my mental health, something weird has happened. I feel OK.  I don’t see myself as “sick.” I’m not … Continue reading

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Labels Matter

In the whole 3 days since I was told I may have schizoaffective disorder, I’ve put in some long, hard thought about labels and diagnosis. Everyone except one person has told me that labels don’t matter, and it doesn’t matter … Continue reading

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The name game and firing your psychiatrist.

Every single psychologist, therapist, and psychiatrist I’ve seen has had a different opinion as to what is going on with my brain. Including the psychiatrist I saw yesterday. The running list so far: Anxiety Depression Nothing (this one makes me … Continue reading

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Recovery is…

Being in recovery doesn’t mean I get to feel good all the time. Sometimes all the symptoms still get together and have a party in my head. It means I am able to go “I feel like shit” and then … Continue reading

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It’s OK to be OK

Sometimes what makes me feel better surprises me. Last night wasn’t necessarily a struggle, but there were things weighing heavily on me. In other words I was wallowing in self pity. Then someone asked me what I was doing this … Continue reading

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These are the hard things.

Coming out of a severe depression and finding out that you have to wait until you cycle again for adjustments to be made to your meds. Getting asked out on a date and spending more time worrying about how you … Continue reading

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This isn’t about you.

Even though all signs point to bipolar, there is this nagging thought in the back of my head. Do I even have the right to claim the diagnosis of bipolar disorder? Take a moment to fully appreciate the absurdity of … Continue reading

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