Tag Archives: depression

Things and stuff

No one has ever asked me if I was married. Except this week. Four people asked me in two days. And no, they were not eligible guys. When I say no there is this awkward silence. My therapist poked all … Continue reading

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Too much.

I get the feeling that there is going to be a lot of me posting in the near future. Over the past two days my brain is picking up speed, and everything I normally use to cope with it isn’t … Continue reading

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Holy shit moment #2

All my life people have commented on my size and weight. My entire immediate family is small. We are tall, but small. It’s just the way we are. And I’ve always been the smallest, and I figured that was just … Continue reading

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Murphy’s law and a lovely rant

I’m living it right now. Everything that can go wrong this season will. And don’t tell me that I need to be positive. Positive thinking my ass. Every time I think positive and plan and do everything I possibly can … Continue reading

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Music

I’ve been using music to keep me sane these past few months. I started playing handbells at a church in town and joined a community band. When I sat down with my schedule to see how many concerts I could … Continue reading

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Trapped.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Actually, I’ll probably keep saying it until I figure out how to deal with it. I feel trapped. Especially in my job. But it’s so much more than that. It’s one … Continue reading

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Stress

I’ve probably mentioned this 1001 times but… This stress is killing me. I’m staying up late and take naps during the day so I stay up even later and…..you get the picture. My sleep is jacked up. When I’m not … Continue reading

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New is good.

I loved my old therapist. I didn’t know my old psychiatrist was bad. But as I sat in my new psychiatrist’s office this morning I realized something. I feel safe in this new practice. I was able to switch people … Continue reading

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The Crash

I’m watching a spectacular crash that is out of my control. It’s ugly. It’s slowly chipping away at my life. It sounds dramatic, but I’m starting to realize that it’s true. I have to psych myself up to shower and … Continue reading

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Ohhhhhhh

I had a revelation today while sitting at my desk trying to concentrate. I know I’m overworked. I know I’m burned out. I know my perfectionism has me frozen. I know I’m doing the work of several full time jobs. … Continue reading

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