Tag Archives: depression

Reality

I feel like I’m in high school again. Not in the sense of drama (thank God), but in the actual way I feel. The majority of the time that I was in high school, I danced on that fine line … Continue reading

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Here we go again….

Well, any doubt that something is wrong with my mental health has vanished. Depression has fully parked itself in my brain. I feel like I have my own personal black cloud. It’s been slowly creeping up on me. But the … Continue reading

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Alright. I’m confused.

I’ve been hesitant to write here. Can I blame that on my new therapist? Because I want to.  I want to blame all the confusion I feel on her. For months I’ve been trying to sort out how much I’m … Continue reading

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Annnnd I’m done.

Have you ever had one of those moments where you just want to throw your hands up in the air and yell “I’m Done!” I’m there. I get one of my meds through the drug company’s patience assistance program.  Last … Continue reading

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What if…

Ever since the new therapist essentially told me I was fine and suggested that the reason I feel like crap sometimes is because I expect to, I’ve had this inner struggle.  I’m full of what ifs. What if the reason … Continue reading

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Damn Worksheets

I’m doing that fun thing where you have to get to know a brand new therapist. I’m proud of myself for being able to sit down and be up front and honest about my symptoms without putting it off or … Continue reading

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Time for a new therapist

Today, I meet my new therapist.  This will be the tenth psychiatrist/therapist I’ve gone through. Tenth.  And out of those ten, TWO have believed me. The other eight….some misdiagnosed me, a few (ironically the ones with the PhD’s) told me I … Continue reading

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Person-first language

I am Bipolar. I know the politically correct thing to do is person-first language.  But lets face it, Bipolar touches every part of my life. The depressions leave me in tears and cloud my thinking. The psychosis makes me hear … Continue reading

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Stronger than you think.

We were on vacation and my mom pointed out a card and said she was going to get it for me. There was a Winnie the Pooh quote on it. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, … Continue reading

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New beginnings

Yesterday, I said goodbye to my therapist. I had been with her for a little over two years. She helped me through a lot. I’ll miss her. But it’s time for me to move on.  Saying goodbye is sad but … Continue reading

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