Tag Archives: bipolar

Frustrated with the system

I am neither running down the street naked nor am I trying to throw myself off a bridge. So I’m “fine.” I’ve went from suicidal depression to extreme craftiness and hyperfixation, but since I was able to sell what I … Continue reading

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And it gets more complicated…

Yesterday morning I almost passed out. I all but lost consciousness. If my mom hadn’t been there I would have been out. Didn’t know where I was, couldn’t hear, couldn’t walk or stand. I was on the floor. Went to … Continue reading

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How I know my brain is falling apart on me. Again.

I feel scattered. All I can do is talk about myself. I can’t remember anything. I’m choosing not to do things that need done. It’s a struggle to focus on other people. I turn into a complete and total slacker. … Continue reading

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Journaling

And I’m not talking on here. I mean stream of consciousness pen to paper word vomit that you don’t read until two days later and all you can think is “Holy shit! Is that really what happens in my brain?” … Continue reading

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Humph

Let’s put this simply. I’ve been depressed for the last I don’t know how many months. A year maybe? I have no idea. Until this week. I’m cooking. I’m cleaning. I’m socializing. All those normal human things. But I’m also … Continue reading

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20 questions

I feel like my posts have become judgmental, impulsive and bitter. So I’m trying something a little different. What’s the toughest decision you made today? Seeing that it’s only 9am, I’ll go with yesterday. Attempting to not be bitter about … Continue reading

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Dinner Time!

So a thing happened. I made dinner by myself tonight. I went the store yesterday with a grocery list for dinners I planned out. And then I actually made the dinner. I remember telling my old therapist (which means I’m … Continue reading

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Things and stuff

No one has ever asked me if I was married. Except this week. Four people asked me in two days. And no, they were not eligible guys. When I say no there is this awkward silence. My therapist poked all … Continue reading

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Too much.

I get the feeling that there is going to be a lot of me posting in the near future. Over the past two days my brain is picking up speed, and everything I normally use to cope with it isn’t … Continue reading

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Holy shit moment #2

All my life people have commented on my size and weight. My entire immediate family is small. We are tall, but small. It’s just the way we are. And I’ve always been the smallest, and I figured that was just … Continue reading

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