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Late nights and downward slides.

I stayed up late last night. Bad move. I had a friend from college over and we talked until 10:45 or so. I went straight to bed when he left, but I’m paying for the late night now. A couple … Continue reading

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What if…

Ever since the new therapist essentially told me I was fine and suggested that the reason I feel like crap sometimes is because I expect to, I’ve had this inner struggle.  I’m full of what ifs. What if the reason … Continue reading

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Here we go again

Me: *Looks at watch.  It’s 5:50pm* Did anyone else hear those church bells? Friend: No Me: *Looks at dad* Dad: Nope Me: I swear I heard them, but its strange that they would be at ten till six. Friend: *Joking … Continue reading

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The name game and firing your psychiatrist.

Every single psychologist, therapist, and psychiatrist I’ve seen has had a different opinion as to what is going on with my brain. Including the psychiatrist I saw yesterday. The running list so far: Anxiety Depression Nothing (this one makes me … Continue reading

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Mental Gymnastics

Every now and then I get it in my head that I’m not really bipolar…that I don’t really have a mental illness.  There’s two way this manifests itself. I don’t believe I need therapy anymore.  I believe my symptoms went … Continue reading

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Damn Worksheets

I’m doing that fun thing where you have to get to know a brand new therapist. I’m proud of myself for being able to sit down and be up front and honest about my symptoms without putting it off or … Continue reading

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Time for a new therapist

Today, I meet my new therapist.  This will be the tenth psychiatrist/therapist I’ve gone through. Tenth.  And out of those ten, TWO have believed me. The other eight….some misdiagnosed me, a few (ironically the ones with the PhD’s) told me I … Continue reading

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Memory

Yesterday at work I was asked a question.  This question was something I should know the answer to.  It’s one of the most obvious questions in my field of study.  Hell, I’ve taught on the subject I don’t even know how … Continue reading

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Person-first language

I am Bipolar. I know the politically correct thing to do is person-first language.  But lets face it, Bipolar touches every part of my life. The depressions leave me in tears and cloud my thinking. The psychosis makes me hear … Continue reading

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Stronger than you think.

We were on vacation and my mom pointed out a card and said she was going to get it for me. There was a Winnie the Pooh quote on it. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, … Continue reading

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