Tag Archives: anxiety

Things I learned in partial….

This was probably the most necessary thing I’ve ever done in my life. Structure Where to draw the line that tells me I should go to the hospital. Validation Put the work in and say what you need to say. … Continue reading

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Frustrated with the system

I am neither running down the street naked nor am I trying to throw myself off a bridge. So I’m “fine.” I’ve went from suicidal depression to extreme craftiness and hyperfixation, but since I was able to sell what I … Continue reading

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Confusion

Monday morning I almost passed out. I went to work anyways and my boss said some very hurtful things-mostly that I was a very immature and rude individual who was weak and couldn’t handle anything. At first I was upset … Continue reading

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And it gets more complicated…

Yesterday morning I almost passed out. I all but lost consciousness. If my mom hadn’t been there I would have been out. Didn’t know where I was, couldn’t hear, couldn’t walk or stand. I was on the floor. Went to … Continue reading

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How I know my brain is falling apart on me. Again.

I feel scattered. All I can do is talk about myself. I can’t remember anything. I’m choosing not to do things that need done. It’s a struggle to focus on other people. I turn into a complete and total slacker. … Continue reading

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Humph

Let’s put this simply. I’ve been depressed for the last I don’t know how many months. A year maybe? I have no idea. Until this week. I’m cooking. I’m cleaning. I’m socializing. All those normal human things. But I’m also … Continue reading

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Too much.

I get the feeling that there is going to be a lot of me posting in the near future. Over the past two days my brain is picking up speed, and everything I normally use to cope with it isn’t … Continue reading

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Not now. Please.

I got home from work today and couldn’t sit still. I wanted to do anything and everything. Did I do anything productive? No. I still have a piles of laundry and a counter full of dishes, but my mind was … Continue reading

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Murphy’s law and a lovely rant

I’m living it right now. Everything that can go wrong this season will. And don’t tell me that I need to be positive. Positive thinking my ass. Every time I think positive and plan and do everything I possibly can … Continue reading

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Trapped.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Actually, I’ll probably keep saying it until I figure out how to deal with it. I feel trapped. Especially in my job. But it’s so much more than that. It’s one … Continue reading

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