Tag Archives: anxiety

Humph

Let’s put this simply. I’ve been depressed for the last I don’t know how many months. A year maybe? I have no idea. Until this week. I’m cooking. I’m cleaning. I’m socializing. All those normal human things. But I’m also … Continue reading

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Too much.

I get the feeling that there is going to be a lot of me posting in the near future. Over the past two days my brain is picking up speed, and everything I normally use to cope with it isn’t … Continue reading

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Not now. Please.

I got home from work today and couldn’t sit still. I wanted to do anything and everything. Did I do anything productive? No. I still have a piles of laundry and a counter full of dishes, but my mind was … Continue reading

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Murphy’s law and a lovely rant

I’m living it right now. Everything that can go wrong this season will. And don’t tell me that I need to be positive. Positive thinking my ass. Every time I think positive and plan and do everything I possibly can … Continue reading

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Trapped.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Actually, I’ll probably keep saying it until I figure out how to deal with it. I feel trapped. Especially in my job. But it’s so much more than that. It’s one … Continue reading

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The Crash

I’m watching a spectacular crash that is out of my control. It’s ugly. It’s slowly chipping away at my life. It sounds dramatic, but I’m starting to realize that it’s true. I have to psych myself up to shower and … Continue reading

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Ohhhhhhh

I had a revelation today while sitting at my desk trying to concentrate. I know I’m overworked. I know I’m burned out. I know my perfectionism has me frozen. I know I’m doing the work of several full time jobs. … Continue reading

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Burnout and burning tongues

Last time I saw my therapist, he suggested that I was burned out. I was all “sure, makes sense”. Then I went home and googled it (because that’s what I do) and holy shit, I’m burned out. The apathy, the … Continue reading

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When, not if

When I saw my mental health people last week, they told me if things didn’t get better I should do a partial hospitalization. Since then, I’ve started sleeping on my parents couch. They drop me off and pick me up … Continue reading

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And here we go.

Well, I went in to see my therapist and he took about .3 seconds to get to the “good stuff”, meaning everything that sends up red flags in therapy world. After asking me 3 different ways if I wanted to … Continue reading

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