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Hospital

I spent a lot of time last night thinking about the hospital since my therapist suggested it. I had lots of time to do that- skipping meds combined with the looming anxiety of what may happen kept me up last … Continue reading

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Today I texted my therapist to tell her I stopped taking my meds among other things. She suggested I go to the ER. Shit.  I texted her back and told her I was NOT going to the ER, that I … Continue reading

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Exhaustion

Well. I survived. I made it through the week of camp. I was kinda useless by Thursday (thank goodness for my assistant). I just didn’t have the energy and mental capacity to deal with 5th graders anymore. I couldn’t even … Continue reading

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Follow-through

There are some things about myself that frustrate me.  Namely, my follow through.  Anytime I try to track anything…my mood, my budget, anything…..it falls by the wayside about a week and a half after I start. Hell, after about two … Continue reading

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Work

I should be at work right now.  I’m going to be late today. I’m nearing my breaking point and I have another 9 days before I have a day off. We have a two day event this weekend and then … Continue reading

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Memory

My memory used to be fantastic. But now, not so much.  I’ve never used a day planner and I never used to write down my homework when I was in school and I NEVER forgot what I had.  Now I … Continue reading

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Say what?

I was over at my mom’s today helping her with stuff when she looked at me and said, “you know how you told me that sometimes you hear things? I know what it’s like that’s happening right now.” Say what? … Continue reading

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The Future

I wonder a lot about my future.  What will my Bipolar look like in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years? Will it get better or worse? Will it stay the same?  Will I be able to handle the job that … Continue reading

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“THE” conversation

Well. After a talk with my therapist, we decided that I needed to do a thing. Specifically, tell my boss that I’m sick. Yes.  Tell my boss that I am mentally ill. Now, its not like I sat myself down … Continue reading

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Tired

I’m tired.  I am so, so tired.  Of all of this.  I’m tired of being sick.  I’m tired of monitoring my moods. But most of all, I’m tired of feeling like I’m failing.  I can’t keep up.  The feeling of … Continue reading

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