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Square peg, round hole.

This has been a crazy couple of weeks. The work disaster, possible last minute job situations where I could transfer to the same kind of job in a different situation, lots of talking to lots of people, and lots of … Continue reading

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Confusion

Monday morning I almost passed out. I went to work anyways and my boss said some very hurtful things-mostly that I was a very immature and rude individual who was weak and couldn’t handle anything. At first I was upset … Continue reading

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And it gets more complicated…

Yesterday morning I almost passed out. I all but lost consciousness. If my mom hadn’t been there I would have been out. Didn’t know where I was, couldn’t hear, couldn’t walk or stand. I was on the floor. Went to … Continue reading

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How I know my brain is falling apart on me. Again.

I feel scattered. All I can do is talk about myself. I can’t remember anything. I’m choosing not to do things that need done. It’s a struggle to focus on other people. I turn into a complete and total slacker. … Continue reading

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#food

I have a bad habit of not eating. Tired, exhausted, busy, happy, sad, stressed, anxious, whatever. I fell out of the habit of cooking a year ago. I’m staring down three weeks of nonstop work where I’ll be beyond exhausted … Continue reading

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Journaling

And I’m not talking on here. I mean stream of consciousness pen to paper word vomit that you don’t read until two days later and all you can think is “Holy shit! Is that really what happens in my brain?” … Continue reading

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Humph

Let’s put this simply. I’ve been depressed for the last I don’t know how many months. A year maybe? I have no idea. Until this week. I’m cooking. I’m cleaning. I’m socializing. All those normal human things. But I’m also … Continue reading

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20 questions

I feel like my posts have become judgmental, impulsive and bitter. So I’m trying something a little different. What’s the toughest decision you made today? Seeing that it’s only 9am, I’ll go with yesterday. Attempting to not be bitter about … Continue reading

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The wall has been hit.

The last month has been non-stop. My therapist asked me when I thought I’d hit a wall. Well. Now. The wall has been hit. Yesterday was the end of the marathon and in the last 24 hours two of my … Continue reading

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Jealousy

Four months ago I turned 30. This is not a post about how I feel old. This is not a post about how I miss my youth. This is a post about regret and jealousy. My 30th birthday was quiet. … Continue reading

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