Author Archives: Nicole

Today I texted my therapist to tell her I stopped taking my meds among other things. She suggested I go to the ER. Shit.  I texted her back and told her I was NOT going to the ER, that I … Continue reading

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Exhaustion

Well. I survived. I made it through the week of camp. I was kinda useless by Thursday (thank goodness for my assistant). I just didn’t have the energy and mental capacity to deal with 5th graders anymore. I couldn’t even … Continue reading

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Follow-through

There are some things about myself that frustrate me.  Namely, my follow through.  Anytime I try to track anything…my mood, my budget, anything…..it falls by the wayside about a week and a half after I start. Hell, after about two … Continue reading

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Work

I should be at work right now.  I’m going to be late today. I’m nearing my breaking point and I have another 9 days before I have a day off. We have a two day event this weekend and then … Continue reading

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Memory

My memory used to be fantastic. But now, not so much.  I’ve never used a day planner and I never used to write down my homework when I was in school and I NEVER forgot what I had.  Now I … Continue reading

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Say what?

I was over at my mom’s today helping her with stuff when she looked at me and said, “you know how you told me that sometimes you hear things? I know what it’s like that’s happening right now.” Say what? … Continue reading

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The Future

I wonder a lot about my future.  What will my Bipolar look like in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years? Will it get better or worse? Will it stay the same?  Will I be able to handle the job that … Continue reading

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“THE” conversation

Well. After a talk with my therapist, we decided that I needed to do a thing. Specifically, tell my boss that I’m sick. Yes.  Tell my boss that I am mentally ill. Now, its not like I sat myself down … Continue reading

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Tired

I’m tired.  I am so, so tired.  Of all of this.  I’m tired of being sick.  I’m tired of monitoring my moods. But most of all, I’m tired of feeling like I’m failing.  I can’t keep up.  The feeling of … Continue reading

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Good News, Bad News

Last time I saw my psych she ordered blood work.  The depression has been coming back and the fatigue was getting to me. Good News? Blood work came back normal. Bad News? Blood work came back normal. Why is this … Continue reading

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