Author Archives: Nicole

Med change #7545

I’m two weeks into a med change. Pros: I’m not constantly irritable. I don’t hate life, I don’t hate my job, and everything isn’t getting on my nerves any more. My memory has improved. I can hold things in my … Continue reading

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Side effects.

Over the past several months I’ve been bitter.  It’s been a gradual thing, and something that I never really spoke of to my therapist.  Over the last month or so the bitterness started to turn into anger. Still, I didn’t … Continue reading

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How I know I’m not in a good place

I have zero motivation. It’s been weeks since I’ve seen my bedroom floor because of all the laundry. My mom offers to take all of said laundry home to wash it. The thought of going to work makes me burst … Continue reading

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Ugh.

Well kids, what have we learned in the past 24 hours? That I can make bad, bad decisions. As I mentioned before, I decided that I didn’t want to take my medication. So I didn’t.  For two days. Last night … Continue reading

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My Crazy is showing

Well. My crazy is sorta showing again. 2 things triggered me. (And I get points for being able to acknowledge that right?) We don’t need to rehash that shit right now, but this is what I’m left with. I’ve stopped … Continue reading

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My Story, Part 2.

Part 1 The years that followed were a mixed bag of being OK and not OK.  In 10th grade it was like someone flipped a switch again, and I was fine.  That is the last time I remember not being … Continue reading

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My Story, Part 1

I told my friend that I’d tell her my story. I wasn’t sure where to start, or how much to tell.  I couldn’t tell everything…16 years is a long time. 16 years.  Over half of my life.  This is Part … Continue reading

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What to tell, when to tell

I’m talking to this guy.  We haven’t officially met yet, but we are talking. So far so good. Last night we were texting when the announcement came on TV about Syria. I told him because I thought he’d want to … Continue reading

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Dear Self

You are tired.  You are stressed out. You’re angry. I know. It breaks my heart to see you so bitter. You weren’t always like this.  In fact, a year ago, things were different.  Those memories that pop up on Facebook….you … Continue reading

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Behold the mighty Post-It note.

Last night I pulled out my journal.  I had lots of things running through my head, so I wanted to make a list. A list of reasons why I should give up. So I grabbed my pen, pulled out my … Continue reading

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