My boss texted me last night at 1030 to tell me that plans changed for today. So I asked if I could take the day off because my schedule is so messed up for the next month and a half. She said yes.
I turned off my alarm and went to sleep.
It is 9:50 am and my mom has texted me 4 times in the last 30 min asking me if I’m working today and what are my plans.
I’m pretending I didn’t see the texts.
I want quiet. I so desperately want quiet. I want to drink my tea and scroll through job postings. I want to practice my music for tonight. I want to clear off my kitchen table and maybe go to the store by myself. I want to think about anything other than work.
I can’t turn on the TV and I have to get out of this chair soon or I won’t get up at all.
I don’t know if I’ll clean today and I don’t know if I’ll do laundry. I should do both of those things. But I think I need to get out of my apartment first. I don’t know where I’ll go….it’s miserable outside. But if I don’t get moving now I won’t move at all.
It will be OK.