Monthly Archives: April 2018

Murphy’s law and a lovely rant

I’m living it right now. Everything that can go wrong this season will. And don’t tell me that I need to be positive. Positive thinking my ass. Every time I think positive and plan and do everything I possibly can … Continue reading

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Music

I’ve been using music to keep me sane these past few months. I started playing handbells at a church in town and joined a community band. When I sat down with my schedule to see how many concerts I could … Continue reading

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Mania=sandwiches

I’ve started to notice drug ads for bipolar on tv. They don’t always get it…quite right. The one I just saw made me giggle a little. The med is supposed to treat bipolar I mania. They show this blond haired, … Continue reading

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Trapped.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Actually, I’ll probably keep saying it until I figure out how to deal with it. I feel trapped. Especially in my job. But it’s so much more than that. It’s one … Continue reading

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Stress

I’ve probably mentioned this 1001 times but… This stress is killing me. I’m staying up late and take naps during the day so I stay up even later and…..you get the picture. My sleep is jacked up. When I’m not … Continue reading

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Quiet

My boss texted me last night at 1030 to tell me that plans changed for today. So I asked if I could take the day off because my schedule is so messed up for the next month and a half. … Continue reading

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New is good.

I loved my old therapist. I didn’t know my old psychiatrist was bad. But as I sat in my new psychiatrist’s office this morning I realized something. I feel safe in this new practice. I was able to switch people … Continue reading

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Hope.

I don’t have long to write…I have to get ready for work. But I wanted to throw this out there. I saw my therapist yesterday. Miserable, hopeless, and dreading work. I’m still miserable and dreading work, but there is a … Continue reading

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The Crash

I’m watching a spectacular crash that is out of my control. It’s ugly. It’s slowly chipping away at my life. It sounds dramatic, but I’m starting to realize that it’s true. I have to psych myself up to shower and … Continue reading

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Ohhhhhhh

I had a revelation today while sitting at my desk trying to concentrate. I know I’m overworked. I know I’m burned out. I know my perfectionism has me frozen. I know I’m doing the work of several full time jobs. … Continue reading

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