Monthly Archives: March 2018

Burnout and burning tongues

Last time I saw my therapist, he suggested that I was burned out. I was all “sure, makes sense”. Then I went home and googled it (because that’s what I do) and holy shit, I’m burned out. The apathy, the … Continue reading

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One day at a time..

I’ve survived the week and I’m back in my own apartment. I saw my nurse practitioner today, and she seemed optimistic. But I am terrified. I don’t think the suicidal depression went away because of the medicine. It went away … Continue reading

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When, not if

When I saw my mental health people last week, they told me if things didn’t get better I should do a partial hospitalization. Since then, I’ve started sleeping on my parents couch. They drop me off and pick me up … Continue reading

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Finally

Guys, a beautiful thing happened. I slept for less than 11 hours and woke up feeling rested and with energy. I’m so excited. I’m not stupid enough to think that everything else went away. I know that one full day … Continue reading

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And here we go.

Well, I went in to see my therapist and he took about .3 seconds to get to the “good stuff”, meaning everything that sends up red flags in therapy world. After asking me 3 different ways if I wanted to … Continue reading

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Fear

I was able to get in to see my therapist this morning and I’m terrified. This will be only the second time I’ve seen him and I have to tell him difficult things-the depression and anxiety are out of control … Continue reading

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When depression robs you of your confidence

I have been saying I want to switch jobs for at least a year, if not longer. I have been saying I’m unhappy in my job, that I’m tired of what my job requires of me. But over the past … Continue reading

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