There are some things about myself that frustrate me. Namely, my follow through. Anytime I try to track anything…my mood, my budget, anything…..it falls by the wayside about a week and a half after I start. Hell, after about two weeks I get too lazy to refill my pill organizer. It’s like clockwork. It’s gotten to the point where my therapists suggests something and I simply look at her and tell her that isn’t going to happen.
I know this about myself, I’ll even openly admit it. But I hate it. I know I would benefit from doing those things. I even want to do those things. But no matter how badly I want it, I can’t seem to do it. This blog seems to be the only thing I do consistently.
And I have to wonder. Is this just me? If it is, why can’t I change it even though I want to? Or is it the bipolar. Is this something I can blame on that? Does anyone have any insight into this?