I should be at work right now. I’m going to be late today. I’m nearing my breaking point and I have another 9 days before I have a day off. We have a two day event this weekend and then I go straight into our summer camp. This day last year I had a breakdown and had to call in sick. I’m still going to make it to work this year, so I guess that is an improvement.
But I’m taking it easy. My brain can’t handle much else. I’m functioning in a perpetual fog, and I feel like I’m going to burst into tears at any given moment.
I don’t want to admit to my boss that I’m struggling, especially as we approach major events. I am going to ask for a couple days off after all this is over. I have comp time I can use. I need a four day weekend to recover.
I hate that I can’t handle stress anymore. I used to be able to balance so much at one time. I question my ability to do the job I want in the future.
I’m going to do as much as I can for as long as I can and that will have to be enough.