I never realized taking pills could be so damn hard. To say I don’t want to is an understatement. I know they are helping me but I just don’t want to feel medicated anymore. I just want a couple days where I don’t have to deal with it.
So I skip one day. Nothing earth shattering happens, I actually feel good. So what if I skip another day? How many days can I skip before bad things start happening? I’m starting to think that maybe I don’t need all of them….does that mean the bad things have already started but I am just oblivious to it? I’m stalling going to bed because I haven’t made up my mind if I’m taking them tonight or not.
I can never seem to just be OK for any length of time.