Monthly Archives: October 2016

To take or not to take

I’m doing that thing you aren’t supposed to do.  Skip meds.  Some of them anyways.  The one I like the least.  Why?  I’m blaming all of my miserable-ness on it.  I know that’s probably not true but I’m still taking … Continue reading

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Non-compliance

I’m smart.  I follow directions like a good little girl.  I’m so on top of things sometimes its annoying.  I’m early to everything. I take my pills and I go to therapy.  In general, I’m what you’d call “compliant”. Except … Continue reading

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Creativity

I told a friend the other day that it feels like something sucked the creativity right out of me. It’s subtle, but it happened. It’s also hard to explain.  I lost that spark I used to have about creating something. … Continue reading

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Relationships

I know I’ve written about relationships in relation to bipolar before.  This isn’t one of those times. I do the whole online dating things.  I have for years.  I’ve met some good guys.  So why am I still single?  I … Continue reading

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If you want to make me mad, this is how you do it.

I realize this post could potentially make me sound cynical and bitter. Sorry not sorry. I’m enough of a big girl to realize I’m upset at my situation and jealous and oversimplifying, but that doesn’t mean I don’t get frustrated … Continue reading

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I got this.

Two weeks ago, it was decided that I didn’t have to go to therapy last week. (yay!) Proof that I’m getting better. That doesn’t mean the last two weeks were filled with puppies and butterflies and unicorns.  Far from it, … Continue reading

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Recovery is…

Being in recovery doesn’t mean I get to feel good all the time. Sometimes all the symptoms still get together and have a party in my head. It means I am able to go “I feel like shit” and then … Continue reading

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Dear Future Self–

Last week, my therapist told me that I’m in recovery.  In my world, that means this is as good as it gets.  I don’t mean that in a bad way.  I’m mostly happy with where I’m at.  What I’m not … Continue reading

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