Monthly Archives: June 2016

Where did I go?

I’ve always struggled with my mental health. (I know, I know…y’all are thinking “No shit.” Hear me out though). In fact, my freshman year of high school, it all but consumed me. But then it backed off. My sophomore year … Continue reading

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Putting up with crap.

“It had already been the murderous mother of all bad days to begin with, and now he had to drag his bone-weary body through the depths.  He was tired of pain, tired of endlessly walking, tired of being pursued.  He … Continue reading

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the ugly bits pt 2

I’m in that ugly space where there are no words that can actually describe what is going on. And for me…that ugly space leads to that dirty little word it seems like no one ever talks about. Cutting. It’s complicated. … Continue reading

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the ugly bits

As much as I’d love to say I’ve got my shit together now, I don’t. Anxiety is kicking my ass and for whatever reason my brain is telling me that I can’t do what I have to do at work … Continue reading

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One day…..

I spend a lot of time thinking about being open about my mental illness–what that would mean for me and what the aftermath would look like. Bipolar is a misunderstood illness, and I want to educate people about it. My … Continue reading

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It’s OK to be OK

Sometimes what makes me feel better surprises me. Last night wasn’t necessarily a struggle, but there were things weighing heavily on me. In other words I was wallowing in self pity. Then someone asked me what I was doing this … Continue reading

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I’m sorry, mom.

There is one thing bipolar has done to me that I don’t know if I can forgive myself for. It made me hate my mother. I’m not talking about the she annoys me and I can’t stand her but I … Continue reading

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Just when you think you have it figured out

Something else crops up. I have all these (plausible) ideas for second jobs.  Some of which could be very profitable. Some, dare I say it, even enjoyable. All of the totally realistic. I’ll pick up applications, start them, and then … Continue reading

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Impulsive

If you don’t want to read my ramblings, at least scroll down to the bottom of the post.  There is a quote there that describes life better than any words I could ever find. For me, it describes Bipolar.  But … Continue reading

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Boys

It’s 5:53AM and there is a boy in my apartment. The one I’m kinda sorta dating.  Don’t worry, I told him he could be here. (Backstory: He came up to visit me, but lives two hours away, so I told … Continue reading

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