Monthly Archives: May 2016

Cars and second jobs

I need to buy a car.  Not this second, but in the next few months.  My trusty 13 year old car is still in good shape, but considering its only worth a little over $2000, one thing goes wrong and … Continue reading

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Life Goals

I was texting that guy I’m kinda sorta dating last night. He asked me what was on my bucket list. I paused. I don’t have a bucket list. I didn’t want to make something up for the sake of having an … Continue reading

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Mania/hypomania

Or whatever you want to call it.  I’m learning that any label beyond Bipolar Disorder and being able to say whether I’m “up” or “down” doesn’t really matter. Part of the reason I struggle with identifying as someone that has … Continue reading

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Why must things be difficult

Let’s talk about meds. I’m quickly approaching 15+ combinations since I started the whole drug almost two years ago. At first we kept switching meds because they were doing weird shit to me, but that was because I was misdiagnosed. (One … Continue reading

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Resources

In November, when I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and didn’t know what to do, I started to research. Knowledge is my security blanket. It calms my nerves and makes me feel like I have some control over the situation. … Continue reading

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Restless

Yesterday, I found myself looking at job listings. Wait, I love my job, right? This is the job I’ve been waiting for the past 6 years. This is the job that lets me use all those skills I’ve collected over … Continue reading

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Cheating on your therapist

Sara is out due to surgery, so she arranged for me to see a different therapist in the office because things have been….difficult….lately. Today I met with the other therapist. Sara sent me to her because “she understands your kind of … Continue reading

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When things aren’t OK anymore.

Heads up: I talk about suicide in this post because its my reality right now.   Not so long ago, I thought I was approaching stability. Heh. Funny. I’m not even sure what happened.  Everything kinda exploded in my face. … Continue reading

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