Monthly Archives: February 2016

Here we go again.

We can all agree that medicine sometimes sucks, right? We had found a magical medicine (no, not that kind of magic) that made be feel like a normal person. That is until said medicine made me feel like I was going … Continue reading

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There isn’t always a silver lining.

I think I’ve written about this before. A recent convo has made me think about it again, so I thought I’d throw it out there. I had come across an article that talks about how there is divine purpose in … Continue reading

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3 years and so much change

A week shy of three years ago I was sitting in this same hotel having a mini breakdown because I just found out that my long term sub assignment was going to continue for several additional weeks.  I was having … Continue reading

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One day at a time.

I almost didn’t make it to work to work today.  But I did. I almost didn’t make it the whole way through the day.  But I did. I’m tired and exhausted and worn out. I want to not move and … Continue reading

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I need to have a moment.

I am trying So. Damn. Hard. to keep my head above water.  I am trying to stay positive, I am trying to cope, I am trying to be strong, and I’m trying to not self destruct. But its So. Damn. … Continue reading

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Nothing is ever easy.

I know I’ve said multiple times that it was comforting to know that my mental health didn’t have any easy answers. That the years I spent searching for answers are justified.  That the confusion and stress is there for a reason. So … Continue reading

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Whack-a-mole

My friend asked me how I was doing with the latest medication. I replied that this has been one of those weeks where, when it comes to symptoms, I feel like I’m playing whack-a-mole with a 20 lb. hammer. And … Continue reading

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There’s a lot of things you can say, this isn’t it.

Things not to say during a panic attack– What meds are you on? When did you start taking them? How many times was the dose adjusted? This is probably a side effect of X. Are you sure it isn’t a … Continue reading

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And now for something completely different…

Every day, a daily devotional shows up in my inbox. Every day I read it. This morning I opened up and was reminded it is Lent. Lent is probably my favorite season in the church. The why is complicated, but … Continue reading

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I can totally do this.

One thing that I have been told over and over again, is how impressive it is that I’ve been able to accomplish what I have all the while having some crazy-ass things going on in my head. The whole time I’ve … Continue reading

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