Monthly Archives: January 2016

Where are my people?

I’m on a constant search to find people like me. And by “like me” I mean people with bipolar disorder who work full time, hold down a so-called “typical” life, and the only way someone would ever know is if it … Continue reading

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Twitter crisis.

Apparently, I’m having an existential crisis over a twitter account. Seriously. I don’t have a twitter account.  I had never really wanted one, but after I set one up for the organization I work for, I was like “Hey!  This … Continue reading

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Well this should answer some questions

On Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, I felt good–normal.  Monday evening I started to feel really good.  Last night (Tuesday) my brain kicked it up to high gear–I was happy and flighty and distracted and my mind was going a mile a … Continue reading

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Diagnosis: Unknown

Well, I’m three days into feeling like a normal, functional, optimistic yet realistic person In other words–the non-mentally ill me. It was so fantastically awesome to sit down with my therapist today and tell her “I’m fine, really.  I feel … Continue reading

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There’s “OK” and then there’s OK.

I learned something about myself this morning. I woke up this morning to the epic snow everyone has been talking about for two weeks and decided to head out and take a walk around the square. (Have I mentioned I … Continue reading

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So what is this?

This is what goes through my head.  This is the struggle I feel I can never make people understand.  This is what makes me want to walk away from everything I’ve done in the past year. Someone commented on my … Continue reading

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What now?

What are you supposed to do when you decide your done? Done with therapy and done with medication.  I’m tired and exhausted and have obsessed over everything one too many times. I’m almost completely and totally convinced that the past … Continue reading

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Sometimes the words “I’m not sure” are the best words

I met my new psychiatrist last night.  She’s all the things you’d want in a doctor. Kind, easy to talk to, listens, asks good questions.  And most importantly, she really knows her stuff. My therapist has been stumped for a … Continue reading

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When “normal” returns

I know I’m coming out fog and back to my “normal” when my world starts to feel bigger than just me and whatever strong emotion that had a grip on me falls back into a manageable range. While I secretly … Continue reading

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Dancing on the line. On a Pogo stick.

So if you haven’t figured it out yet, I use metaphors. All. The. Time.  They help me understand how I feel and give me enough distance I can be rational about it. Not to mention that I can usually laugh … Continue reading

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