I feel like my posts have become judgmental, impulsive and bitter. So I’m trying something a little different.
What’s the toughest decision you made today?
Seeing that it’s only 9am, I’ll go with yesterday. Attempting to not be bitter about my job.
What’s the toughest decision you made this year?
Giving myself permission to acknowledge that I may not have picked the best field this time around.
What’s the toughest decision you ever made?
Leaving teaching. Hands down.
What have you forgotten?
What my life felt like before I was diagnosed with bipolar. The memory of feeling like I was normal and had potential for a life with marriage, kids, and a decent career is quickly fading away.
If you were guaranteed the answer to one question, what would it be?
What direction my career should go in.
What’s it like being you right now?
Intense. Confusing. Uncertainty.
What makes you nostalgic?
People that are successful and going somewhere in life. I miss that feeling.
If you had two hours left on earth what would you do?
Spend it with my family.
What’s the most beautiful word in the world?
Who makes you laugh more than anyone?
What did your father teach you?
What it means to be a good person, how to work hard, how to laugh, and don’t let anyone mess with you.
What did your mother teach you?
How to help people.
What’s the best gift you’ve ever given?
Jeez, I don’t know. Maybe the ones that are meaningful?
Best gift you ever received?
The thoughtful ones…ones that make me realize that someone cares about me.
How many times a day do you look in the mirror?
Less and less as I get older. I’m not entirely thrilled with how I look…
What do you bring most to a friendship?
In general I don’t think I’m that great of a friend, but on my good days I guess empathy? Sometimes?
If 100 people in your age group were selected randomly, how many do you think they’d find leading a happier life than you?
Well if you go by what people post on Facebook all of them. In reality though I’d say a good number…I’m pretty fantastic at feeling bad about myself.
What is or was your best subject in school?
I should say history because that’s what I majored in, but if you look at what my grades were (and the classes that were easiest for me) in high school and college I’m going to go with calc, chemistry, and physics.
What activity do you do that makes you feel most like yourself?
Teaching. Why did I leave teaching again?
What makes you feel supported?
Someone truly understanding my struggles with mental health.